soundaholic.

Friday, January 25, 2008

my thoughts.
my say.
my voice.

music.makes.me.lose.control {9:18 AM}

Friday, January 18, 2008

A year has pass. And has already begun.

Every year, we wanna change for the better. (or for the worse)
Every year, we make mistake.
Every year, we make new friends and enemies.
Every year, we hope for the best, and end up with the worse.
Every year, we get hurt again.

music.makes.me.lose.control {12:31 PM}

Friday, September 14, 2007

*mixed feelings*

I have no idea what's happening to me. It's like, as if... I'm starting to not know myself anymore. It's super weird, I feel like as if I don't understand myself anymore. And I started to hate myself.

It started with weird empty feelings in May. From there it was a roller-coaster ride, sometimes I'm back to my ordinary self, and sometimes I'm just not myself. Firstly, I thought it was mood swing. But somehow it keeps coming back. The attitude problem, the weird feeling and emptiness inside of me.

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what's the problem.
I don't know why it is happening.

*argh*

Maybe.... MAYBE...

Maybe I just need to do some soul searching.
Maybe its just in my head.
Maybe I just need some time off.
Maybe I just need to have my regular routine back (school routine)

But from what I know, I been taking things harshly on myself.

Things such as:

people starts talking bad about me or backstab me
people scolding me even for the smallest things
expectations and deadlines
people controlling me like a puppet

People always tell me that I'm strong and stay strong.
Well, I WAS strong, until things starts to fall apart into pieces.
Slowly... bit by bit and everything came clashing down

music.makes.me.lose.control {5:19 PM}

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Kinda went shopping just now with my sister. Bought MAC makeup. *wohoo*

Things we bought: