TheDilaTheory

2008-01-25T09:18:00.000+08:00

my thoughts.
my say.
my voice.

2008-01-18T12:31:00.000+08:00

A year has pass. And has already begun.

Every year, we wanna change for the better. (or for the worse)
Every year, we make mistake.
Every year, we make new friends and enemies.
Every year, we hope for the best, and end up with the worse.
Every year, we get hurt again.

2007-09-14T17:19:00.000+08:00

*mixed feelings*

I have no idea what's happening to me. It's like, as if... I'm starting to not know myself anymore. It's super weird, I feel like as if I don't understand myself anymore. And I started to hate myself.

It started with weird empty feelings in May. From there it was a roller-coaster ride, sometimes I'm back to my ordinary self, and sometimes I'm just not myself. Firstly, I thought it was mood swing. But somehow it keeps coming back. The attitude problem, the weird feeling and emptiness inside of me.

I don't know what to do.
I don't know what's the problem.
I don't know why it is happening.

*argh*

Maybe.... MAYBE...

Maybe I just need to do some soul searching.
Maybe its just in my head.
Maybe I just need some time off.
Maybe I just need to have my regular routine back (school routine)

But from what I know, I been taking things harshly on myself.

Things such as:

people starts talking bad about me or backstab me
people scolding me even for the smallest things
expectations and deadlines
people controlling me like a puppet

People always tell me that I'm strong and stay strong.
Well, I WAS strong, until things starts to fall apart into pieces.
Slowly... bit by bit and everything came clashing down

2007-09-13T18:00:00.000+08:00

Kinda went shopping just now with my sister. Bought MAC makeup. *wohoo*

Things we bought:

Powder Foundation

Liquid Foundation

MAC Cosmetic Bag

Blushcreme

Plushglass

Loose Powder

Stick corrector

Powder Foundation case

And guess how much was the total price.
GUESS??

TOTAL: $115.00

It's freaking cheap lah. What a good bargain.

I LOVE SHOPPING

2007-09-08T13:11:00.001+08:00

LOOK at how amazing cropping can be:

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2007-09-08T13:08:00.000+08:00

More PICTURES to drool on:

2007-08-22T14:09:00.001+08:00

Picture to drool on:
Video to drool on:

(Sorry for not updating. Been busy)

2007-07-26T18:22:00.001+08:00

Memories

On the Way to a Concert
22 Nov '03
(Juliet & Me & Nigel & Atifah)

SYF
3 Jul '04
(Azwan & Me)

I was from Concert Band
After a Concert in school 28 Jul '04
(Me & Nick)

During a Performance 15 Apr '05
(Iman & Firdauz & Me)

After a course
13 Sept '05
(Me & Kaya & Shaf)

Cheapcakes Graduation in School
26 Sept '05
(Firdauz & Zad & Me & Kaya & Shaf)

Last Day of School
28th Oct '05
(Iffah & Me)

Birthday Party
1 Apr '06

Working
( Eleena & Me)

After Clean & Green Performance
11th May '06
(Eliza & Me)

Beats Encore Hari Raya Outing
11th May '06
(Niza & Naq& Me & Eliza)

Biennale '06

Flame Awards & Create Fiesta
11 Nov '06
Me & Mary & 'Arifah

2007-07-19T08:58:00.000+08:00

ALL YOU GIRLS.. ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

1. Do you burp in front of guys?
yesh. I don't give a damn.

2. Do you straighten your hair?
Rebonded june'06
som it is already straightened! :)

3. Whats your favorite girl magazine?
Seventeen.

4. Did you ever spend all day/night
getting pretty for a guy?
sheesh, no way man.

5. Did you ever cry during a romantic
movie?
yeah. i'm sensitive *sob*

6. Would you leave the house without
makeup on?
YUP! makeup is not everything darling

7. Do you consider making
out "unladylike"?
ahahaha, making out is sexy. and
ladies are sexy.

8.On the scale of 1-10 how fun is
shopping?
shopping is fun fun fun. lovin' it.
10 *wohoo*

9. Do you think lipgloss is the best?
yes, it makes your lips look all natural.
*muack*

10. Do you freak out if you miss your
favorite show?
Depends on whether it is a good episode

11. How long does it take you to get
ready in the morning?
Around 30 mins.
Could be less if i plan what to wear earlier

12. Do you like soccer boys?
haha yes! *erps*

13. Is pink the best color in the
world?
No. Black, white, brown.

14. Have you ever dressed unlike
yourself to impress a guy?
urgh. maybe. okie okie.
yesh

15. Do you often wish there was
something you could change about
yourself ?
yes. everyone does

16. Do you dress up too much for
holidays?
not really. too busy that i don't have holidays

17. Do you like to wear dresses?
love to :)
but i don't have nice legs to show off.
and i'm short.

18. Do you write a lot of mushy love
poems?
yup. depends on my mood

19. On a scale 1-10 how much do guys
confuse you?
10. guys are more complicated
than girls la.
and guys like to mess around with girls

20. In the past 24 hours have you hung
out with a guy?
if having lunch with my classmate is counted,
than yes.

21. Are shoes your weakness?
NO! Clothes and accessories are my weakness

22. Is chocolate your best friend?
TOTALLY.

23. Do you like to paint your nails?
Not really.

25. on a scale of 1-10 how many times
do you look in the mirror a day?
7. Depends on my mood.

26. Are your nails long and pretty?
nope. I have retarded nails

27. How often do wear high heeels?
very very very rare.

28. Would you rather go to a sports
event or go shopping?
SHOPPING! cant resist it.

29. Would you rather go to a rock
concert or prepare yourself for a
party i guess.
also depends on what party

30. Would you rather listen to music
or dance to music?
I love listening to music.
Coz i can't dance well. *oops*

2007-06-14T11:26:00.001+08:00

This is La Vie En Rose.

Gosh, I simply love this song.

Hope you like it too.. :)

2007-06-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

Will you...

Will you jump, when I jump?

Will I say I love you too, when say I love you?

Will you cry when I die?

Will you be by my side when I need you?

Will you wait for me when I go overseas?

Will you still love me when I become handicap or distorted?

Will you still be my friend when I become handicap or distorted?

Will you still love me when I migrate?

Will you forget about me when I migrate?